My Sanctuary

life hasn't been great today. was feeling down since morning.. tried to sleep it off but couldn't. turned on the tv earlier at 4 in the morning & caught a christmas animation / musical (there were alot of singing). the movie is called "Adam Sandler's Eight Crazy Nights" it certainly touched my heart & cheered me up.

Sypnosis

When extremely disgruntled small-town guy Davey Stone (voiced by Sandler) faces another holiday season in his New England hometown, he does what he always has - he screws up big and lands in jail. Davey's old basketball referee, Whitey, bails him out with the bright idea of putting Davey to work doing community service. But Davey turns his sentence into a daily disaster for Whitey and the whole town! After a few surprises - including the mysterious reason for Davey's bad attitude and the reappearance of a childhood sweetheart - Davey might find a reason or two to change his ways.

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had been coughing so much that my lungs hurts whenever i cough. my throat so sore & the damn itch on my back is becoming very unbearable. argh.. & it seems that my sick body is rejecting nicotine intake cos whenever i tried to smoke, i'll feel like puking. however though, the addiction is still there, the urge to smoke.. & puking on the 3rd puff. no good.. no good.

hmm.. my sanctuary.. well i just wanna find a sanctuary from problems & troubles in my life. downright impossible but i can hope can't i?

the end.. good night. oops.. i mean morning! bleahz..

had been coughing blood for 3 days now. the cough is so loud that it could be heard at every corner of the house. my mum was fast to associate it with smoking. oh man.. she had been nagging & nagging.. she was nagging when she left the house for work in the morning & the first thing she does when she got back from work was to nag some more.. bleahz..

nothing much happen to me. was at home whole day slacking & chatting, smoking & drinking. mundane lifestyle i'm leading right now. hmmm.. oh well.. nothing much to blog so arrivederci guys.

my mum held an open-house especially for her friends who had been bugging her. i was helping her out with some of the cooking & most of the cleaning up after all the guest had gone home. i really hate these sort of events.. i stayed in my room to avoid talking with them. cos they really ask alot of questions.. bleahz.. haha..

my back is starting to itch alot.. argh.. & i'm not allowed to scratch it.. i'm bearing it everyday.. it does look a bit dry.. probably cos the skin is healing up.. i've just applied some moisturizer. picked up the tip from some website. i really can't wait to get it done!! thinking back.. the process actually hurts but i manage to distract my mind.. oh well.. since i've already started.. might as well finish it.

aloha people..

My wish (partially done)

hadn't had a decent sleep due to the discomfort situated on my back. had to sleep on my side, although its how i usually sleep but its still wasn't comfy. i guess "no pain no gain". it wasn't really as painful as i thought it would be but it is very boring & very uncomfortable. sat at the chair for 3 whole hours with a few minutes of break every now & then. the guys there are cool. very brotherly. haha.. the older dude said "welcome to the club" which i think is true, cos i might be there again adding something else in the future. well, who knows really.

monday was only the first session, only did the outlining cos to complete the whole design would take a very long time as it is really big. on the 16th i'll be doing the shading for the tail & other appoinments for the rest of the shading. probably another 2-3 more sessions.

initially i thought of having a potrait of a person. i even brought along a photo. however the artist, being experieced & all, advised me not to as it is "foolish" (by his words). & so i decided to stick with the original design, what a damper. bleah..

woke up with aches & feeling sore all over my upper body. applying the "salvon cream" (antiseptic cream) on my upper back was rather difficult & tedious cos i can't really reach that part of the area. & i don't really have anyone (who knows about it) to apply it for me. so the stretching exercise during my primary school days really help alot. it was certainly but unexpectedly helpful. hahaha..

i'll be putting up the on display only when it is finished. oh yah.. the deisgn cost 700 bucks!! what the hell was i thinking??!! lolz.. hmmm.. anyway.. ciao.

man it had been tiring these few days.

i'd my new wardrobe installed on friday. very cool, very nice.. i like it! later that evening, on the same day i went out with my friends for some shopping. might as well cos i hadn't been buying any clothes lately. ended up with 4 new shirts & spent the rest of the night survey tattoo parlour.

on saturday, i cleaned my room again for the 2nd time in less than a month! whoa.. the world is gonna end!! lolz.. very very tiring.. stoped halfway thru as my back gave way again.. sigh.. very painful.. at the end of the day everything seems to be in place.. well.. more or less.

today i actually done it! oh god oh god.. what am i doing??!! bleahz.. who cares.. watched a soccer match that my friend was involved in at an isolated field. nearby the british council.. kinda creepy looking with all the empty, dirty looking houses. later in the day, we chill out at the a fast food outlet, smoking till we drop & chatting about dumb stuffs. hahaha.. very very tired right now. ouch.. my back..

all i can say is that tmr is a very very big day for me. once done, there is no turning back. well.. there is but its gonna cost alot of $$$. feeling very nervous & scared but excited & thrilled at the same time.

ciao..

there is just no end to it.

new year's coming. i'm hoping to transformed myself into another person (for the better or worse )by the start of the new year at least. well.. i'll try.

nowadays i'm slow at catching things. so if anyone wants to let me know something, let it be direct & straight-forward. otherwise i'll probably fail to get it, or my mind will be filled up with questions & more questions.

i'll be expecting a make-over of my room early next month. so excited about it. heard that the outcome is rather nice, of course, since i designed it myself. bleah.. alot of stuffs are gonna be thrown out cos there's alot of junk in my room right now. hahaha.. papers upon papers upon papers.. some i don't even know where it came from. haha..

sorry guys for not coming for the outing on sunday. i reached home around 8 in the morning. can't remember much as i was kinda drunk & extremely tired. sleep for more than 12 hours after that. haha.. i woke up, walked to the kitchen window feeling dazed & went straight back to my bed & continued sleeping. like a walking zombie. haha..