i'm at home.. cos i just felt too stressful in camp.. not due to work overload but it's actually the other way round. these past 2 days i've been doing nothing other than sleeping & sleeping. until i couldn't sleep anymore. so i've been cleaning up the whole floor, sweeping & tidying up the rubbish. but still i felt bored.. so tonight i just wanna get away from camp.. supposedly due to return to camp by 2359 hours cos it's just a night's off but i guessed i shall be going back later in the morning.. gonna go to MOS later to destress myself. it'll be considered as AWOL but it isn't the first time i did it. ah whatever..
don't understand people, mainly myself.. really ought to meditate & straighten out my thoughts. i need to be at peace with myself instead of always going against it.. it's quite tiring mentally. i don't wish to flare out my tempered everyday in camp.. not good for my karma & relation-wise with people around me. Ommm....
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Monday, January 02, 2006
The morning after...
haha.. wanted to blog yesterday.. but didn't feel like it after i logged in.. haha. anyway i didn't really went out for the new year eve celebration cos.. well i overspent my budget for this month & most of my friends were in camp, some were doing guard duties, some went over the causeway, some were too damn lazy & some were dry on cash like me! haha.. the reason why i'm low on cash is cos i had a 1 week leave this week so i basically spent it all on booze, cigarettes.. tonnes of it & other stuffs. so far i've basically watched "The Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch And The Wardrobe" & "Wallace & Gromit: The Curse of The Were-Rabbit" & "King Kong". well.. these all "pretty alright" movies i guess.. it seems like a boring 1 week that i had although there were alot of activities for me.. somehow the mood wasn't there. same goes for the new year.. it seems to be missing something special for me.. just can't make out what it is..
2005...
most memorable thing is that i've been enlisted to the army! haha.. i can't believe its not even a year yet! it seems so much longer that i've been in the army.. maybe cos i'd rotten my time out in camp most of the time. haha.. but i believe i'm a changed man. well for instance i'm not afraid of spiders anymore! lolz.. well.. i wouldn't really say totally. but its still a achievement. haha. if i'm not wrong, what made me overcome my fear was.. hmm.. a month ago i was having my UIP & i had to do this section training as a refreshment to the unit. i was just fucked my my RSM (regimental sergeant major) for one mistake that i did & somehow i was pissed by that.. so i called the section to charge into the vegetation & i didn't realise that my path infront was denser than the rest of my section-mates.. but at that time i was "hot" so what the heck.. i charged forward & the next thing i knew, i was covered with some thread-like substance.. i knew that it was spiderweb... eeuuuwwww.. but that's not all.. there was something on my forehead, about the size of a compact disk.. so without thinking i grabbed the thing & i felt it being squished in my hands.. & i was like (EEUUUWWW) X2 & throwing it aside at the same time.. soon after i wiped away all the webbings on my face. as i was doing that i noticed an even bigger spiderweb with a medium-sized arachnid on the center right infront of my path. then i was like whoa..... if i had charged forward about a yard more... haha.. at that moment i was feeling so disgusted & tired that i've totally forgotten about the fucking from my RSM. hahaha.. & that's how the story goes..
2006...
hmm.. thus far i hadn't made much resolution other than getting my printer fix or maybe buying a new one just so i can fulfil my next resolution which is to design another tattoo.. hahaha.. but before that, i'll have to get into shape.. kinda have been neglecting my fitness this whole week. beer belly is starting to form up. lolz!!
for christmas i had wished for santa to give me a better love life but maybe i've been on the naughty list this year thus i didn't get any.. so i'm wishing for the same thing this new year.. haha.. i'm not desperate mind you.. but it would be better to have someone by my side other than friends.. okay-okay.. i guess i'll be logging off now.. downloaded alot of videos due to 5 days of non-stop downloading.. my PC had been working overtime this week & it a record of 5 days straight. so i'm gonna watch all of it now! so ciao!!