is my eyesight getting worse? i was waiting for my private instructor when i noticed these two "ladies" about 5 meters away walking towards my direction. i thought they sisters or close friends cos they were holding hands and knowing my nature i singled out the better looking "lady" in terms or dress sense. the weird thing was that as they came closer the one i picked out seemed to be getting older. it was then that i realised she was the mother of the one next to her. oh crap! haha. so the question is whether my eyes are becoming bad or is the mother is dressing too sexy for her age? i mean come on! the mother looks way better than the daughter considering the age side. haha. seeing such things early in the morning well it woke me up at least. anyway my instructor somehow came 2 hours later all due to a mix-up in admin. doesn't really matter to me cos i've the time to spare so i went to visit my old neighbourhood at bukit batok. its been a really long time since i visit, even though Singapore is so fucking small on the world map, roughly about 8-9 years. i spent about an hour browsing thru all the shops! lol! i must have look like some tourist, looking around trying to remember the places with great curiosity. most of my favourite shops are still there and i didn't realise there were that many food court before and a few new ones have opened since then. too bad i didn't have all day to wonder and i don' think i'll be visiting anytime soon even if i'm near the area.

driving is hard. riding a bike is easy. reason is that i can use my hands better than my feet. using my feet to control the pedals is like asking an elephant to be delicate. haha. the start up is the problem for me. i can feel the engine, i can hear the engine but i can't control the clutch and accelerator. my feet are too rough, its hard to ask my feet to depress the clutch by a cm and hold it there. maybe its cos of my foot wear so i asked my instructor if i could drive barefooted starting tmr and he gave it an Ok. so we'll see how it goes tmr. anyway i've got a long time to practice cos the test is due next year jan. argh.. so freaking long!

these few night i've been getting plenty hours of sleep but always have nightmares and weird dreams. firstly i've weird dreams about strangers. i think i've never seen them before so why are they appearing in my dreams? but its quite alright cos they not disturbing my sleep. however the nightmares i've been having are bad. just one word 'SPIDERS!'. i keep on remembering about all the spiders in tekong especially the one that i'd accidentally crush with my bare hands. maybe it coming back to haunt me. its just too creepy! to show how creepy it is i tried to find a picture of it on the net. there's plenty of spiders and i've plenty of goosebumps and spine chilling moments, so much so that i grew sick and tired of it. haha. i just can't stand looking at it more than 5 seconds before i change windows. then slowly i started to overcome my fear but the more i look at all the spiders the more i freak out at every single movement on my body. actually i started blogging at 7 pm its almost 10 now, its been drag all cos of the spiders. anyway i just picked out one picture, not sure whether its the same one but it roughly alike. its not like i observe the real spider when i came across it. the first thing on my mind then was always "back off slowly" and tell my men "alright! lets try another route" cos of it my emergency stop on foot has improve. haha.. ewww.. just look how gross it is.

The Stylistics

i've been searching for this song for a long time now eversince the gatsby advert featuring the SMAP guy who was acting all gay. haha. but i was more interested in the song. an oldies from the 70s group called "The Stylistics" and apparently a one hit wonder.

oh man. i can't seem to sleep yet again. darn cat outside my window urmm.. "meowing?". its kinda creepy since its so loud and i'm deprive of sleep. i don't dare to check it out cos the last time i did i got a big shock out of it. my fragile heart won't be able to take another shock.

lately i've been sleeping with my pc turn on the whole night listening to oldies, jazz, classical and i've even resorted to corny love songs. oh my! wait till the bills arrive. the things i do to make me sleep. i guess that the reason why i like the mentioned genre, except for the last one. they are so soothing that it makes me sleep. . . well some of them are nice at least, actually most of it just bore me to sleep but nothing beats listening to a lecture. just a minute listening to lectures and i will drop dead sleeping. i should've recorded some lectures then.

looking back i've been talking alot about sleep, way too much. i just can't help it, i just can't sleep. its like my body is damn tired and ready to shut down any moment but my mind is wide awake, body and mind is not in-sync, in different time zone. its in relation to consuming alot of caffeine for a last minute cramping to exam. yeah thats how i'm feeling right now. don't think this is good for my health, earlier my left arm was trembling for an hour.

finally the cat has stop. gotta try to sleep again.

Summer 2007

not sure why but for some reason this korean song makes me happy and joyful. the group is called brown eyed girls and the song is called oasis, i think. i don't actually understand entirely what they are singing about, but i have a rough idea judging from their music video? anyway i'm just interested in the music not the song. . . and well maybe the girls in the music video too. haha.

Sleeping Disorder? Part II

Humans can't do without sleep, even for me. earlier i went for my practice theory lesson. supposed to attend 4 sessions but my conscious self was only there for 3 sessions. due to my lack of sleep i walked into the room like a zombie, went straight to the computer and started doing all the questions. the first two sessions was alright, by the third session i was drifting in and out of consciousness. the fourth session i was already in a place far, far away for a solid 1 hour. it was so relaxing until the instructor had to wake me up. haha. this brings back memories. all my life sleeping has been an issue for me. thus i gain the ability to sleep anywhere anytime. i've tons of experience to share, all involving sleep. primary school was the start of it all. i always sleep on any bus on the way back, always miss my stop and ended up at the bus terminal but luckily the terminal was near to my house. usually someone will wake me up. ah how kind strangers ah. my sleeping habits became worse in secondary school. lets see now, sometimes i miss the stop going to school if i'm lucky it'll be just a few stops if not then i'll try to sneak in but that always fails. come to think of it my detentions were mostly due to coming to school late. on the way back home its basically the same thing, miss my stop and ended up at the terminal but since its a different bus so its a different terminal. lets just say that i live in the far west but i wake up in the far east and no, i'm not talking about the shopping centre. i remember the first time i alight the bus made my first step and saying "where the fuck am i?" to the bus driver. so i waited for the next bus, went back and not surprisingly miss my stop again but this time around by 1 stop. somehow it doesn't matter to me if there's seats available or not. sometimes i can sleep while standing up but i try not to do it so often cos its embarrassing when i fall and every one's attention is on me. the trick to this is to maintain a semi-conscious state while standing up but i always end up getting knock-out. in class i wouldn't want to talk so much about it cos it was a routine thing for me. you could say 70% of my attendance is sleeping. the only class i dreaded was my 2nd language class. i think the teacher is those "old school" type of teacher where discipline is a major issue. of course i was always made to stand inside the class, outside the class, on the chair. if he's in a good mood he'll just ask me to stay awake. one time i was so sleepy that i bang on the table with a face plant. school days is so much fun. in poly its a sleeping kingdom, that's all i want to say. the experiences outside are the interesting ones. like taking an mrt at one station and in a blink of an eye i'm teleported to the other side of the same station. well in reality the "blink of an eye" took about 2 hours and i didn’t really teleport, the train just made a loop of singapore but i wasn’t aware of that until i realise the train was going the wrong way. National service was a sleeping nightmare for me especially during their boring lectures. i don’t know why but i’m always the one getting caught. i’ve caused my whole company to do extra punishments so frequently that every lecture became “make idham stay awake session” hahaha!! of course that’s not 100% guaranteed. most of the time i spent lectures standing up by the stairs only to doze off and falling down the stairs, that really hurts. but sleeping anywhere was the real experience here. so far i’ve slept at graveyard in wee hours of the night, in a drain, in a canal, beside a cliff, i’ve even slept during heavy rains without shelter. when i got to my new unit it was a totally new kind of nightmare, the kind where i don’t wanna sleep anymore. the reason is simply because i slept too much. that’s how my clubbing got started actually.

my sleeping habits has no fixed timings to it. i just sleep when my body tells me to sleep. whenever there’s exams i usually leave it to the night before to cramp it up. that’s how i do exams. planning to start off reading the important notes i’ve highlighted but ended up reading the entire book. try imagine cramping a whole year of study into 1 night. but i’ve always manage to score good grades so that’s fine for me. i could have scored better grades if i hadn’t leave it to the last minute but that’s not my style. usually i forget everything after an hour after the papers, not sure if that’s a good thing or a bad thing. anyway i’ve been thinking of working in the night shift since i’m much more active in the night. its not a bad idea really.

i’m finally getting sleepy so i better try to sleep now before the feeling is gone.