Near future add-on.

i'm back again! the top pic is a tattoo design i modified from several sources so i think its safe to say that i designed it? its like taking a template and add in a lot of creativity with the help of a software and thus this is the result. the design was ready a few months ago but after my regular tattoo artist went awol from the tattoo industry to work at a zoo. i'm trying to find someone who can do a good job and demands a reasonable price.. i don't have much contacts though so it might be postponed till god knows when. anyway i haven't decided yet where to place it. left arm or right arm? at least for certain this current tattoo can be easily seen by me therefore it acts as a reminder that i actually have tattoos on my body. so far i have 2 can-sized tattoo underneath both arms, something that i'm sick of. not the tattoo of course but those nosey friends who wanted to see it plus both are ambigrams so not only do i have to lift my arms but i also have to twist my arms around to be able to see the other words from an upside down view. the third tattoo that i have is a pretty big A3-size design that anyone can standing 1km away. yeah anyone but me because it on my back. the only way i can see it is by facing my back towards a mirror which i don't do very often. there was a time when i actually forgot that i have a large piece on my back for more than 6 months. it completely slip my mind until i accidentally saw it one day thru double reflection of mirrors. crap! when i saw it after such a long time i was like stunned to the ground. it felt like the first time i got it done and it was the first tattoo i ever did. such fond unpleasant memories. so far i've never met anyone who had their first ever tattoo done with that kind of scale. i didn't know what i was really thinking back then. all i could remember was feeling hurt and lonely, and i just had to do something to distract myself from the emotional pain. it actually work wonders! during the tattooing process i was relieved of the pain momentarily until the tattoo was done. it took 3 months i think? the artist couldn't complete it faster cos just a small piece, the size of 2 wallets, would take him 5 hours, his wrist couldn't take the strain. then i had to take 1 week rest after each session to heal up. but the amazing thing was that i can hardly remember feeling any physical pain. it could be that the emotional pain i was suffering was even worse? or maybe the room was just tooo cold and i was half-naked shivering? well.. it must be the first option. why? because most recent piece i did, that was like around less than a year ago?, hurts like hell! i'm embarrassed to say that tears of pain flow thru my eyes that day. same room, same coldness, same artist but hell lot of difference in pain levels. anyway i didn't include my second piece cos it was done right after the first piece. i kinda got addicted to it then and totally no pain well comparing to the one i just did that was more than 10 times the size my body was immune to the pain then. AH! hmm.. i seem to remember blogging about this once before. i might be repeating myself. haha.. oh well. i'm off to finish up my liquor.