back from field camp on friday.. book back in on saturday.. book out again on sunday.. & i'll be bookin' back in later at 7. why does it seem like i've nothing better to do? because i'd to serve my confinement on sunday. did something against the rules of my company. haha.. bleahz..

field camp was very very tiring. was feeling shag everyday, esp the last 2 days. but it was fun! all the bonding my platoon shared including with all the sergeants. i didn't feel too well throughout the 1 week of field camp since i hadn't recovered fully from my high fever. my body shut down by itself a couple of times. my breathing just stopped when i use my body to the limit. mind over body? no such thing however. maybe my mind was too weak. well.. at least i managed to complete my field camp.

coming up next will be my sit test. it will take up 3 days in the outfield. just like field camp but this test will determine our leadership abilities. right now i don't have the mood for it. damn mood swings. hopefully i can pull it off.

the month of may.. full of birthdays.. so a happy birthday to all whose was born on this month. plus i'm missing alot of people.. sigh.. it's better for me to be shag. alright gonna rest now. ciao.

Lonely im so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely

So lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll

Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely

hehe.. wonder why i'm blogging? cos i went to see the doctor yesterday for a check up on my condition. anyway the medication from the army doesn't seem to work on me & asked for a mc just in case. oh boy, am i glad i asked for it. cos this morning, my fever came back & i started to vomit. took the new medication & i feel good now! hahaha.. i'm good to go now! ready for the field camp!

so in all i had 3 days of much needed rest. hmmm.. but actually i only need it while i was sick, once i'd recovered, i kinda missed tekong! lolz.. it's true. i miss all the training & i can't wait to book in tmr! anyway i was supposed to have my officer interview this morning sigh.. i hope they can make another arrangement for me.

hmmm.. eh.. nothing else to say. hehe.. ciao!

i'm back at home.. why? cos i went AWOL! haha.. just kidding. actually i was sent back home yesterday by the medical officer in tekong. apparently i had a very high fever, 39.8 deg. anyway if it weren't for the constant nagging from my friends, i wouldn't have seek treatment. i finally budge when my temperature hit 39.0 deg.. by then it was already 9 at night & there wasn't a chance i could have made the last fastdraft home, so i had to stay in at the sick bay overnight.

hmmm.. i'm still feeling sick so i'll just cut short..

will be booking in later at 0730 hrs.. & was informed that i'll have an interview for the officer position tmr at 8. hmm.. i feel so weak now & i'm not sure if i can do well tmr. anyway, what's more important is whether i can survive the field camp this coming saturday with my current condition. sigh.. alright gotta rest now. ciao.

don't feel like booking in.. hmm.. but no choice. good thing about ns is that i've cut down on smoking.. haha.. from a pack a day to a pack per week! even when i book out, i don't feel like smoking. except when i'm with my friends. right now i only wanna sleep but i can't cos i'll have to go to beach road to purchase stuffs for the field camp. anyway even if i sleep, i'll wake up in a couple of hours cos i'm too used to sleeping for short periods in tekong. however i feel too lethargic to get my ass off the house... hmm.. am i talking rubbish? eh whatever.. bleahz

i've thought of a new tattoo. it's small & it represent an ending of a chapter. but i don't have the time to do it plus i've not thought of a position on my body to place it. hmm.. but most probably i'll have it done after i pass-out from bmt, during the 1 week break.

anyway i only wanna wish an early happy birthday to my friend. take care always. cherios!

finally get to rest.. even though its just 2 short days.. it's better than nothing. was really shagged when i reached home earlier, slept the whole day trying to get plenty of rest. doing guard duty was rather fun due to the extra freedom that we get. no restriction to the amount of cigarettes, & prowling around bmtc as we get to familiarize with the place. but its very tiring at the end of it. i managed 6 rounds around bmtc ~ roughly around 16 to 17 km. each detail will prowl 2 rounds for 2 hours & rest for 4 hours. so i did 3 sets of those. actually i was supposed to prowl the last 2 rounds which was around 4 in the morning but my buddy & me swapped with the guys doing the sentry duty as they wanted to get a chance to prowl. i was more than happy to acknowledge them cos i was very shagged & sleepy at that time. sentry duty is to just stand at the arrival gate but since no fastdraft will come at that time of the night, the sergeant-in-charge told us to just sit down.. well.. i fell asleep.. haha..

not getting enough rest due to guard duty, my cough worsened. i didn't report sick as they will give us 2 days of light duties. meaning i'll have to do all the stupid stuffs such as cleaning the company or carry some stuffs while those fighting fit recruits do their training. if there's really nothing for us to do then we'll just sit down in a corner waiting for the training to end. & that is extreme boredom. so i cough non-stop throughout the week, causing lack of sleep & bloodshot eye in the morning. but i don't really care much..

1st week of bmt, i had my first IFC (individual field craft) training. my first lesson was to camouflage myself. applying the facial camou cream was fun the first time, but applying & removing the cream numerous time felt really uncomfortable. then we had to stuff on our uniform to cover up the outline of our body. the first try i opted for long grasses & i end up with deep cuts on my fingers totalling up to 20 cuts on my left fingers alone. the 2nd try i decided to use ferns. this time i managed to cover up myself fully. but since i was the only guy to use excesive ferns to cover up compared to the rest, the instructor called me fern-guy.. duh! another recruit placed 2 large leaf on his back & they called him fairy.. cos it looks like wings. haha..

next week i'll be having my first field camp starting on saturday till friday. meaning it'll be another confinement for 2 weeks.. its gonna be very tiring.. hopefully it'll be fun.

1 month plus had alredy passed.. it seems so fast. soon i'll pass-out from bmt. hopefully i'll get the posting that i want. & recently a career talk from the army came by for a talk. i applied for an officer role in guards. not sure if i can get in. i'm just trying my luck.. haha.. but i really get it then i'll be busy & won't have much time for civilian life.. hmm...

okie i'm gonna rest now & watch tv.. so see ya around in 2 weeks time. ciao!

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I'll be there for you

These five words I swear to you

When you breathe I want to be the air for you

I'll be there for you

I'd live and I'd die for you

Steal the sun from the sky for you

Words can't say what a love can do

I'll be there for you

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Guard Duty

getting sick in tekong doesn't feels good since we aren't able to sleep in & get enough rest. & as if that isn't bad enough, i've only have a few hours to enjoy back in mainland cos i've got to book back in later at 9 since i was "selected" to do guard duties. actually we had to draw lots, so together with 4 more others, we happen to have the unfortunate luck of being the odds ones. sigh.. i was looking forward to get some good rest this weekend. my joints are aching.. but now i'll just have to suck my thumb & do my duties..

nothing more to say now.. see ya next weekend.. ciao

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Sitting here wasted and wounded at this old piano

Trying hard to capture the moment this morning I don't know

'Cause a bottle of vodka is still lodged in my head

And some blond gave me nightmares

I think she's still in my bed

As I dream about movies they won't make of me when I'm dead

With an ironclad fist I wake up and french kiss the morning

While some marching band keeps its own beat in my head

While we're talking

About all of the things that I long to believe

About love and the truth and what you mean to me

And the truth is baby you're all that I need

I want to lay you on a bed of roses

For tonight I sleep on a bed on nails

I want to be just as close as the Holy Ghost is

And lay you down on bed of roses

Well I'm so far away

That each step that I take is on my way home

A king's ransom in dimes I'd given each night

Just to see through this payphone

Still I run out of time

Or it's hard to get through

Till the bird on the wire flies me back to you

I'll just close my eyes and whisper, baby blind love is true

I want to lay you down on a bed of roses

For tonight I sleep on a bed on nails

I want to be just as close as the Holy Ghost is

And lay you down on bed of roses

The hotel bar hangover whiskey's gone dry

The barkeeper's wig's crooked

And she's giving me the eye

I might have said yeah

But I laughed so hard I think I died

When you close your eyes

Know I'll be thinking about you

While my mistress she calls me

To stand in her spotlight again
Tonight I won't be alone

But you know that don't

Mean I'm not lonely

I've got nothing to prove

For it's you that I'd die to defend

I want to lay you down on a bed of roses

For tonight I sleep on a bed on nails

I want to be just as close as the Holy Ghost is

And lay you down on bed of roses

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it seems that whenever i book out, i'll definately get sick. last week was high fever, this week i had heavy cough plus flu. my body seems to be indicating to me that i should stay in tekong, cause i've was never sick during my time there. haha.. i don't really mind actually.. staying there isn't really that bad.. haha..

my 2nd book out was in such a rush that i forgot to bring my house keys with me.. so i had to travel down to my mum's workplace & get the keys from her.. with my dirty & wet & not to mention heavy laundries in my field pack. it was very troublesome.

well.. i really have nothing much to blog about.. will be booking in later in the evening.. so i wanna get some rest now.. so i'm signing off for now..

back from tekong temporarily & i'm darker than ever. i was shocked how dark i was when i look at the mirror in my room. anyway, life in army is kinda slack. the training was alright. unsuprisingly smoking is limited even though i'm appointed as the smoking i/c. the smokers in my platoon even painted a table & a bench just to earn an extra smoke. but i must admit that we did a really good job. haha.. i was initally looking forward to losing weight but instead, i've gain a few kilos.. maybe its the extra added muscles. i've also joined the drill squad. hopefully i'm good enough to represent my company for the competition. plus i've heard that my company, Ulysses coy has always excelled in drill competion. had my first drill training on bookout day, & i managed to soak my shirt with my sweat thoroughly. haha.. i've never perspire so much during all the other training, even when i ran more than 8 laps on the track.

didn't encounter any beings from below. although my platoon mates has. it spooked me a bit.. well alot actually. so paranoid that i slept on the floor away from the windows. woke up the next morning with tonnes of aches on my body. since i had been unfortunate at not encountering any spirits, me & some of my mates decided to spook the others by doing a "make-over" on my of my mate & going from bunk to bunk scaring the others. but i was really shagged that night so i fell asleep instead of staying up. so they turned on me. my mate sat on bed with all the white powder & a bedsheet over him. haha.. he was the ugliest "ghost" i've ever seen. so i just gave him a hard whack & continue sleeping.

didn't really went out today cos i wanted to rest, anyway i was burning with high fever. hmm.. nothing else to write now.. so cya around.

i'm off..