Apache!

having my off now since wednesday.. monday was the posting to my new company.. somehow or rather i got into alpha company or otherwise known as apache company. word got around that it was the worst company in 2 SIR but it turned out to the exact opposite. the CSM is slack.. very slack! woo hoo!! that means good news to me.. lolz. most of the secom there are regulars.. so most likely the new specs like me will just be their 2nd-In-Charge. tuesday & wednesday was outfield but no appointment was confirmed yet during that time so we were tasked as observers which means doing nothing at all.. it was pretty boring but its better than digging up our own grave.. haha.

upon reaching back to our company line.. we had a little brief with the CSM. it seems that he doesn't have a clue to what to do with us, the new specs. since the position of secom in the company is currently occupied. so me & another friend will be going thru the platoon sergeant course due in february for roughly about 2 months. for some of you guys who doesn't know what the course is... well.. fast forward.. i'll get a rise in rank after the course is completed.. hahaha.. but what it means to me is a roof top over my 3rd sergeant rank so as to withstand all the pressure from those senior in ranks. right now my rank is just collecting all the stress & responsiblities.. haha.. i've a feeling some of you who read this might not understand.. well too bad.. find out for yourself! haha..

zouk-out tmr night! ciao guys!

2 SIR - Second to None

okie now.. back to where i left off.. hmmm.. actually i came back from the overseas training weeks ago but i didn't really have time to update. basically the whole experience was very very tiring but meaningful. especially during the 4 days of R & R (rest & relaxation or recreation.. i forgot! haha) i kinda went over my budget.. spent around 1k sing dollars in just 4 days! i must make a note to never do that again! soon after i landed in Singapore, i had to book in the following sunday just so we can prepare for our graduation parade which didn't turn out too badly. lots of pics were taken & i'll post them asap.. well actually it depends whether i'm lazy or not. haha..

anyway i've got posted to 2 SIR which is situated in amoy quee camp. the camp itself is in a terrible state. it's somewhat rundown as it a very old camp. but i don't really mind cos to me any place other than tekong is better as it's closer to home. however as i'm in a unit, it means my sergeant rank don't really provide me with the same authority as in schools like bmtc or sispec. cos i've to do alot of outfield training & also try as much as i desire to, to achieve the unit's goal for glory. incidentally i've just completed my UIP (unit induction programme) set by the unit, which is supposed to help us settled in quickly by familiarizing ourselves with the unit. in my honest opinion.. i seriously don't feel motivated at all.. the unit seems tough & the targeted goals they set for us junior commander is very high, futhermore i feel that i've lost the spirit to go on my ns life going through outfield training. i'm sick of it, mentally & physically. but it seems that fate had already set this path for me so i'll just have to go thru it & hope that it won't be as bad as i've imagined.

regarding my life, it's currently inactive. i've just had my ears pierce well i think that's about the only interesting event that had taken place hmmmm... oh yah.. the NCC camp is also at the same camp as i am. in fact its just beside my unit. i ran past it numerous times this 2 weeks during the cadence run.. some of my friends got posted there. the job is basically slacking the whole day & they get to book out everyday cos it's based on office hours! less than 5 guys from my sispec course managed to be posted there! those damn bloody lucky bastards! it pisses me off when they complained how bored they are everyday doing nothing. sheesh! okay i'm signing off now. shall update whenever possible. ciao!

Bon Voyage!

hiya.. its been a really long time.. i've got posted to the same school but taking a different course as advanced section leaders, ASLC. i've been shoved into Golf Company this time round.. and this had been like a few months back. anyway i think my new coy. sucks big time. in terms of discipline, administration & organisation. the only thing they are good at is giving welfare, maybe too much welfare for me. its too slack.

in this new course, there's much more focus on outfield area. all the battle drills & doing all the live firing. it's so safe during all the live firing that it worries me. what should i do during a real battle? a real war? there's so much restriction given to the live firing! but then again safety is a big issue otherwise i might not be here typing all this shit.

anyway the fasting month has already started a couple of weeks back and i'm finding it a bit hard to actually fast when there's so much running scheduled in the programmed. initially we were just supposed to just run in the army-half-marathon held at the padang hmm.. last month i think. anyway it was before the fasting begun & it was only a 12 km run, but then they decided to make us run the 22 km graduation run which is actually a norm before we go for the overseas trip. so i just had to suck my thumb and go thru it which i had just recently completed the past wednesday, within 2 hours. ... i'm not sure whether its because my batch is the last batch to go thru sispec course in tekong (we are moving to pasir laba camp, which is soooo near my house!) and all the unlucky shit had to befall upon us. like we were supposed to stay over another camp in mainland which i heard to be luxurious compared to tekong but some artillery company or whatever shit had to occupy the slot and! we were made to book-in and book-out everyday, in-and-out of tekong just to do our training and we can't changed our venue of training as all the ammunition and food rations had already been indented and we weren't allowed to cancel. its actually pretty tiring waking up as early as 4 am and getting back to tekong by 10 at night. all the unneccesary shit and i've went thru it. in a months time i'll passed out and will be getting my sergeant rank! and most importantly.. a pay raise!

actually the main reason why i had to blog right now is because i'll be going over to taiwan in about 5 -6 hours time and therefore will not have any opportunity to blog for 3 weeks. in other words i'll also be fasting over there in taiwan for the remaining 2 weeks and the celebrating my hari raya over there in taiwan. sigh.. i'm so reluctant to go. but then again i also can't wait to experienced the outfield environment in taiwan. lolz.. hmm.. i think there's nothing more i wanna say. so i guess i'll be signing off now. happy deepavali and hari raya puasa in advanced!! ciao!

The best of you . . .

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I've got another confession to make
I'm your fool
Everyone's got their chains to break
Holdin' you

Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Are you gone and onto someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn't have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can't choose
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

Oh...Oh...Oh...Oh...

Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
You trust, you must
Confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

I've got another confession my friend
I'm no fool
I'm getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new

Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

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SISPEC

time seems to pass by so fast. 10 weeks of BSLC (basic section leader course) at Alpha Coy in SISPEC is gonna be over soon. by next week i'll be passing out from the course again. within this period at my "new" coy may not be as memorable as those at bmt but still i've learnt alot of new stuffs; weapons such as SAW, LAW, MATADOR, SAR 21, M203, BANGALORE, CLAYMORE MINE; lots of live firing & section live firing; plenty of "jungle" training plus chemical defence; & incredibly alot of running - 4km, 5km, 6km, 7km.. hmm.. there maybe some exercise which i might have missed out. haha.. anyway the previous week i'd just completed the digging of trenches which is so called the most tiring part of BSLC, but i don't really think so.. well.. maybe there's this freaking large rock which i had to dig out & also the humongous roots.. haha.. okay it was pretty tiring & everyone's morale was damn low cos they were dripping wet from their perspire-soaked uniform. the following last week is rather slack though, cleaning of all the arms, 16 km route march, combat training, physical training lectures & the graduation 32 km route march! oh.. i almost forgot about the 2nd happy hour we're gonna get back at my company line which involves lots of eating & lots of duty-free beer! lolz!! the last happy hour i drank 10 consecutive shots! gonna improve on that count soon.. lolz!!

the best thing about being so called promoted from the "recruit" status to any other rank is that we are able to book-in & book-out in civilian clothing! haha.

that summarizes the whole of my absent in my blog. seems rather short huh? so maybe i'll update more next week regarding my new posting. next week will also be the end of my private status cos i'll be upgrading to corporal! lolz!!! ciao!!

it's been a long time since i last logged into bloggers. well..i don't really feel like updating now.. hahaha.. next time maybe. ciao!

its really a waste of time going for for my medical at the aeromedical centre, plus its located at some ulu place in paya lebar. now i'll need to go for my third medical review on friday. sigh.. i hope to get it over & done with so they can process my application sooner.

few more days & i'll be booking in to tekong again! argh.. i hate that place. when my posting got out, i wasn't sure whether to feel happy or sad. happy cos i'll be together with most of my buddy in tekong. sad cos.. i'll be in tekong! so i was planning to get an mc just so i'll have few more days off. however thinking about it again, i'll miss most of the admin stuff & when i eventually get back, i'll be busy since i need to rush my admin stuff while the rest of the company slack. so i decided not to get an mc, but coincidentally yesterday i fell sick with the normal cough, flu & fever! argh.. hopefully i'll get better before i book in. cos being sick whilst in tekong is a terrible feeling cos we can never recover properly there. sigh..

alright then, i'll be signing off now. gotta take my medicine & rest early. ciao!

3 months of memories

Bernice Outing







Times in Tekong









Siloso Beach Outing

Passing Out Parade! pop lor!!!

i'm back! (for now..) lolz.. the past one month had been very tiring so that's why i hadn't been bloggin'. or otherwise you might say that i've been too lazy to type. haha.. anyway i've just passed out of bmt exactly a week ago. it wasn't as tearful as some of my friends had told me. it was mainly shagged to the bones for me. cos we rehearsed the whole damn parade for like 5-7 times? plus the damn school 2 officer who was in charge of the parade rehearsal. he likes to repeat himself in an irritating way while we stood on the parade ground waiting to just carry on with the rehearsal. on top of that, we had to perform the "lion roar", which is somewhat like a dance movement, before we throw our jockey caps in the air. right now i'm waiting for my posting which will be out this coming friday. 12 days of rest doesn't seem enough.. next week the torture & the shouting of commands will resume.. sigh.

now i'll summarize all that had happen after my field camp.the sit test which i was supposed to go thru didn't happened for me as i lack of route march mileage which is a criteria in order for me to go thru the 12 click route march to the camp site. so what i did during the 3 days was somewhat like the job of a store man, moving stuffs in & out of the 5-tonner, cleaning the area & all the stupid shit. however we were allowed to sleep in our bunks & more importantly bathe! haha.. of course we got that after much pleading to the sergeant major. lolz!!

the following week we had the live grenade throw. i burnt my finger after throwing the dummy grenade. i didn't realise that the metal inside to be so fucking hot. but throwing the actual grenade was extremely fun! the feeling of the ground trembling beneath me & the cloud of smoke hovering the area which the grenade landed. it was orgas!

anyway me & the rest of the guys who didn't do the sit test were attached to pegasus company soon after to finish up the sit test. i think i did quite well on the 2nd day onwards cos the 1st day i was only getting to know the guys in my section. the test wasn't as tough as i had imagined but the memorable incident was the so called 4 click fast march. as the sergeant leading the way made a wrong turn, the guys from ulysses ended up doing a 7 click run with our webbings & personal equipments. argh!

next that i did was the live range. i hit 28 out 32 shots & was awarded a marksmanship title & also an extra day leave! woo hoo!! lolz.. the live range itself took 2 whole day which last from morning to night. as there's daytime shooting & night time shooting. time seems to have slowed down over there as there was nothing else that we can do other than waiting for our turn. but of course we can take a nap but i wasn't able to sleep for that long so i just sat there looking at the clouds.. of smoke which i puffed out. haha..

the 2-3 weeks after was like a leisure time for us. we had a OC (officer-in-charge)night, recruit's night or CO night & the games day. i took part in the games day in the tug-of-war event but ended up losing in the 2nd round to the eventually winners from whiskey. they are a bunch of bloody big pes C guys. we manage to hold for 5 mins but somehow there was a mix up in instruction & lost our focus. damn it! if we had won, i could have gotten another extra day leave. haha..

the dreaded SOC (standard obstacle course) was held the week after. i managed to complete the whole obstacle but didn't do so well on the timing. maybe because i took my time before each obstacle.. haha.. can't really blame me cos it was my first time doing the whole thing as i had missed the lesson due to some reason & because of that i didn't expect to be so tired when i reach the first obstacle after the 700 metres run down. oh well.. i think i'll have plenty of opportunities to improve myself in the future.

finally we had our arduous 24 click route march. i think its something like walking from one end of Singapore to the other end. it was really all that tiring but it was painful walking with all the blisters on both feet. sometimes i hop to move forward & sometimes i was limping like an elderly as i try walking on the sides of my feet. haha.. but the atmostphere was great as the route march was conducted on a school level led by the CO of school 2(i'm not sure what CO stands for but its something like being in charge of school 2), meaning the entire of school 2 was doing the march together! try imagine that plus all the singin that we did.

basically that was what i did during my days in bmt. haha.. all the fond memories, all the pumping & all the rules that we broke! lolz..

back from field camp on friday.. book back in on saturday.. book out again on sunday.. & i'll be bookin' back in later at 7. why does it seem like i've nothing better to do? because i'd to serve my confinement on sunday. did something against the rules of my company. haha.. bleahz..

field camp was very very tiring. was feeling shag everyday, esp the last 2 days. but it was fun! all the bonding my platoon shared including with all the sergeants. i didn't feel too well throughout the 1 week of field camp since i hadn't recovered fully from my high fever. my body shut down by itself a couple of times. my breathing just stopped when i use my body to the limit. mind over body? no such thing however. maybe my mind was too weak. well.. at least i managed to complete my field camp.

coming up next will be my sit test. it will take up 3 days in the outfield. just like field camp but this test will determine our leadership abilities. right now i don't have the mood for it. damn mood swings. hopefully i can pull it off.

the month of may.. full of birthdays.. so a happy birthday to all whose was born on this month. plus i'm missing alot of people.. sigh.. it's better for me to be shag. alright gonna rest now. ciao.